I feel so emotional about so many things.

The girl I knew here, in this wild place.

The "group home" (experiment) I was sent to, by a sold out Freemason.

She was fat, overweight, but wanted me as soon as she saw me, and I couldn't deny how cute her personality was,

So from sleeping together, to the experience of talking closely, she was kicked out of the group home by the staff for her behavior.

She even had a seizure in the parking lot -- that lasted for two minutes, right in front of me, because she had epilepsy.

She was laughed at by one of the staff-woman, for a brief second, while writhing on the ground ....

Being as descriptive as I am, this is kind of disturbing for a place that so-claims to be a "group home" to regard its patients as recipients, when we are clearly treated like patients, and only given the right of way when we take our medication that you are doing research on the results of.

If you send in drug-research also to my doctor, and my case manager, it is obvious what your DHHS "Rights Of Patients and Recipients" handbook means.

You are doing research on patients, and you are corrupt in every way.

I feel bad for the woman I had to file two grievances against, who rubbed her breasts against me while I was getting trash bags, and then while leaning over me said "I smell good" and then walked away like I was a piece of ass.

The condescending "Cody" clone-seeming creep who would unlock my door, and go into my room to tell me "Brendan it's med-time" when all I needed was a med-time change. Which I changed it to 11:30.

I also hate that I had to be injected with potentially thorazine-laced needles as a part of my "therapy" when the pain you asked (if it hurt or not) when the needle was half-way into my arm, that I would lie no, it hurt for days anyway.

The way you slam the doors in your offices, and hospital buildings.

The way you all seem disgrunteled with the same system you abuse.

The pathetic hypocrisy of your nation, in the hands of a soulless design.

The pathetic way you treat spiritual and religious people, who believe in angels.

And the way you treat perfect people like me, the angels amonst you,

who have not been hospitalized in over 10 years,

Only to be put into a George Flord back-of-the-beck chokehold with a cops knee, that I caught on film.

You are a pathetic nation.

You deserve more.

I feel bad for all of you.

I feel so bad for all of you.



BLS