Confession & Apology
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On the basis of the father Abraham.

And other fathers.

I once was pretty incensed, while in a bad state, that I was not going to be given any of my check money. My father threatened me a lot, and was very mean about my drug-use, when he already knew I was taking heroin (which was purchased for me by them, as well as alcohol several years previous to that -- wine and beer).

My parents are enablers, and they have me caught in the stockholm syndrome.

Very bad.

I got angry, when he brought up how I was in a needless stay of solitary confinement once, so I lunged from my feet, and held a lighter up to his face, and right-inbetween our brow chakras, I shouted, very loud, "DO YOU KNOW WHAT THE VALUE OF THIS IS..?" And then with my right hand, I very lightly touched him on the shoulder, and hardly pushed. And he went flying across the room, through the door into the other room, and stumbled three times mid-air to keep himself from hitting the floor. About ten feet.

I remember the movie scene from Chronicle, where a similar event is prophetically depicted between son and father, on the subject of money withholding, or money in general ..

This prophetic scene haunts me, and I admit I never wanted to do that, or do anything close to affect my father as meanly that day as I did. In fact, I had posted a threatening video which was the real basis for why I got in trouble that day, not my father, who is a lot like Abraham to me.

When I was in the hospital he got the corona virus, and I cried a lot when I found out he had suffered an injury to his ribs from a fall later on, and was now retiring from his business, and has actually (now) destroyed his original work building, and works out of home now.

I love my father, and I would never want to hurt him.

He is not my victimizer.

And nor is my mom.

I have great parents, and they have done a lot for me my entire life, and I will always love them.

I don't know "why" I have unchecked power, but it appears I did some form of martial arts move that day.

I do tai chi, and I practice tai chi chuan, and mostly just for self-defense.

I'll admit, he was abrasive that morning, and I felt provoked.

I still wish he knew how much I love him, but I think he's kind of scared of me now.

I'm sorry.

To you, and to anyone else I have ever "hurt" or "mentally affected" with the mis-use of my psychic power, and seemingly magnetic ability.

I never wanted this to happen, and I am (to me) now doing penance for my own actions.


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