Why It Started With You My Pain. by Brendan S It is funny, how some people refuse to believe my early history of suggestion, that I was (in my childhood) abducted (very physically) by the Zeta Reticuli, much like authors of books who describe their abductions, but I never talk about this. The face of the zeta was large yet small, with large black eyes, almost no trace of a nose, and thin lips. He was shorter than me, and had no emotions. He stared into me -- from a distance -- and then up-close. I was told he read no fear. It was a "fear test." Later on, I learned about the Zeta Reticuli, and their need to make exchanges with humans over trauma / trauma exchanges, to heal one another. I'm sorry to admit it is true I was pretty much very abusively molested by both of my birth parents J. S and R. S. directly before this abduction took place. I've tried to tell people "why" a "different trauma" or a "different memory" is what makes you stronger, But people usually just get afraid, and leave the room when I bring this up. I remember my mother sinking into the bath-tub, totally naked, and seemingly high on something. My father was naked in the shower, and I was forced to sit naked on the toilet and "wait for them." Soon I was kneeling before my father. I think he is a very sick man. The Zeta Reticuli are an alien group who have no home. Because of sick people like my parents, I also have no home. I live in a group home now, and I don't plan on giving much more than hate to that awful vampire. Now you know everything ... And why, sometimes, we are better off being special in a different way -- than what they attempt to indoctrinate us for. I am a victim of sexual abuse, and I always have been. - S