Technical and Personal Notes

My use of the devices is on and off, though I am not sure why the matrix will only allow me to use my remote control as a laser-based weapon in the matrix, when my room is totally clean. The remote has to be totally "findable" in a split-moments notice, like a quickdraw, or it will not work. Presently my room is too messy to properly keep the remote located.

I stunned two actors in the show "D______" about hackers, and hacking crime, featuring actual hackers, and when I intervened, I could tell the laser was causing pain to both of them, and they were both paralyzed for five seconds.

There is a strange man with a white dog who lunged at me the other day.

I was walking to the store, and he was standing to the left, and just standing there.

When I walked past him, I had smiled because I was putting my headphones back on, and I Love Music, so as I passed him by, he got right in my face, his face right near mine, and shouted, "YOU DON'T HAVE TO MOVE..!"

I thought this man was insane from the get-go and he is now seeming to become a physical threat.

I've misplaced my mace, and all I have right now is a flamethrower kit and my rings.

I wish I had more support in Belfast, because people here are not so nice to me ..

I've been sexually harassed, lied to, stolen from, and threatened multiple times as well as false flag hospitalizations from call-ins from assholes, and I've generally been treated like shit by the city of Belfast.

(Belfast, ME).

The two FBI listening vans showed up when I got here, and so did the white vans.

The NSA might as well have had a parade.

I was so obvious to people, when I first showed up, it was like everyone knew I was an agent.

When I "crashed and burned" on alcohol and meth, I really got disenchanted by a lot of things, and started to turn my eyes low, and feel more passive toward the judgments of other people -- allowing more abuse, in spite of my going through detox, to the point of stockholm syndrome, which I do have the stockholm syndrome.

I am sad that people won't respect the work I am doing, and I'm tired for being judged on the way I live.

I just want to do my work, and be done with it.

I am not tired.

I am not depressed.


I am nowhere close to suicidal -- I am Hellbent.

I want a difference in this world, and violence interruption, and all of the work I've done for the NSA has made me love my country more, not less.

I find great power in my authority, especially since I am allowed to essentially do whatever I want --

I don't mind being seen as what I am seen as, but I am not a cop, I don't put people in jail, I am an investigator, and a researcher.

People are also threatened by my knowledge of science, which is annoying to me, because I think we should all have a general understanding of science and physics (and math).

It's sad that I am judged so much, amid such serious work, especially by my corrupt group home, which I am actively trying to move out of.

My work in this building is done, and I am ready to move on now.

I want an apartment where I can have at least seven to ten computers set-up, and I want to maintain security at all times.


- BLS / From The Ess Network